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How does it feel to know that you are not good at anything?
I am never good at anything. I do things that has to be done not because I am good at it but because I have to do it. Not because I like what I am doing but because I am pressured. Not because that’s my passion but because THEY have expectations.
I wish I could fly. So I could escape from these called problems. Once, someone told me that it should be called challenges instead of problems, that way, I would have been challenged to face it, not stressed. This is not my FORTE,I know. But I can’t think of something else to do cause I don’t have any other choice. If I have then it wouldn’t be that easy to please people for me to pursue it. Cause I don’t own my life. And I am incapable of making my own decisions for myself cause there are lots of factors to consider. And FVCK all those FVCKtors.
I just hate that I love these people so much. That feeling of letting go is killing me. But there’s no sense of belonging anymore. I don’t expect myself to be this weak. I never had the same feeling as what I am feeling right now. I can’t tell to myself that I am this weak but that is what I am showing. I just can’t handle the fact that I have to move on and let go of the things that doesn’t fit or belong to me. Maybe I just really don’t deserve what I thought I deserve. I thought I can do things with less effort cause I am used to doing things just like that. I thought being just like this is enough. But I was soooo wrong. I can’t do all things with this kind of attitude. I never learned! I never learned from my experiences. I thought life is just that easy to handle. I thought being optimistic is enough to succeed. I was wrong. Being optimistic in doing things with less effort to reach your goal isn’t enough. I WAS WRONG. Life ain’t easy. Sometimes you really have to experience failures in life to understand and learn everything.
Now tell me what’s the point of realizing it all? I got no chance. My chances have faded. My chances were too tired of waiting for my realization of everything that I have to realize.
